Hmm, well today is my first day blogging. I've wanted to start one of these for a while now, but never really had anything to write about...But then I realized, if you wait for something to happen in order to make something else to happen...well, nothing is EVER going to happen..you know? So I figured I'd start this blog as the first step in living out my new moto...If not today, then why ever?...Doesn't really have a ring to it, I know. But I like it and it can force me to do things that I've always been afraid to do. And I know if you say it to others it will put a spark in them to take a chance too....why waste today? QUESTION: Why do people always wait for tomorrow? Have you noticed that when you're challenged with something that you'll put it off until 'tomorrow'? I think it's our first instinct when we're afraid of failure or rejection. When are you going to tell your friend that you're in love with him? Tomorrow. When are you going to go get your lisence? Tomorrow. Or even something as simple as when are you going to get back in shape?...But what if there was no tomorrow? What if you only had today and you were wasting it away. So often we don't realize how important it is to do things on a whim. All our lives we were told to wait it out, sleep on it, think about it...But why? I know people always told me that, but look at how much they've accomplished...Why would I follow the advice of someone who wasn't living out their dreams? Someone who has more than one regret everyday for things they SHOULD have done? As I grow older I find myself thinking WHY NOT TODAY?? Why do I have to wait? I have so many regrets when it comes to relationships, jobs and other opportunities...because I was told, or decided my self, to wait for the 'right time'... When is the right time? Just because we're scared of that moment doesn't mean that it isn't then..does it? I don't think so...I think when it's suggested that maybe it isn't the right time we are so quick to believe it because we want a reason not to go for it. But shouldn't it be our fear of not getting what we want be what governs when we do things? Not our fear of rejection or failure?
When I reflect back to things I've done and failed at and things I haven't done, I find more regret in the later...do you? For example...I recently auditioned for a part that I knew would be super hard to get and was really scared because people told me that the director was a jerk and wouldn't hire any first years because it was a professional production. But I forced myself to do it...and i had a blast! The director was really nice, I got to get some feedback and I learned soooo much! No, I didn't get the part...I didn't even get a callback...but that experience helped me learn a lot about myself and what I needed to work on that I can prepare myself better for future auditions. I failed, but I have no regrets. :)
